When writing explains what I can't explain

I guarantee that this has happened to you too.

Before
Your first exam/speech/big thing you've been worried about, this is true...
"Sometimes I feel like there is so much to be afraid of"

After
It happens. You are so tired, you have been battered and beaten on the ground and you stay down or rise up, this is your last thought of fear...
"And sometimes I feel like there is nothing left to fear." Veronica Roth.


Got any good quotes to share? Leave it in the comments.

The Fault in Our Stars Movie Review

WE MADE IT!!!! THE FAULT IN OUR STARS IS HERE!
I went to a pre-screening yesterday with another big fan of the book and let me just tell you, you want to see this movie.

1. The acting was on point. Perfecto. Flawless. Ansel Elgort was Gus. Shailene Woodley was Hazel. Everyone was amazing. The relationships, the easy banter was all there.

2. It was so faithful to the book. You know how defensive I get when Hollywood wants to make my favourite books Hollywood. It was obviously John Green's Hazel walking and talking and yelling at her lungs off and saying "douchepants". It was obviously John Green's Gus limping and staring at Hazel and loving her.

3. The soundtrack. It was amazing. Hazel was crying and Birdy was singing her to sleep. At the end, Ed Sheeran sung us out of the cinema, weepy but still alive and ready to face the world again.

4. The impressively seemless book dialogue to character dialogue. The book is written in quite pompous prose at the start to reflect the tragic romantic genre. Actually hearing written words aloud though can sound clunky and strange. The balance between the prose's beauty and the way a real life Hazel would speak was really well done.

5. It was funny. They made a real effort to make the first have as enjoyable, ridiculous and cute as possible. We knew the lines, but the screenwriters mixed it up a bit so even fans were pleasantly surprised. For instance when Hazel's mum pulls up after support group and says "You ready for Top Model?" and Augustus raises his eyebrows, awkward.

6. It was sad. I cried 4 times, all at the same places that I cried in the book. Tfios makes you feel feelings. Hearing the sniffles and sobs around the cinema, I was reminded how one story can mean different things to different people. I was crying for the characters. I was crying for not appreciating every second I get in this world. I was crying for my friend's mum who suffered from breast cancer. I was crying for Esther Earl.

7. It was beautiful. It's crazy how something so broken and awful can be beautiful.

I came away from the movie feeling like I'd cried everything out of me.

I felt light.

The Fault in Our Stars Pre-Screening

I just saw the Fault in Our Stars. It was funny and beautiful and sad, all the things that I as a fan of the book and Nerdfighter could hope for. More coherent thoughts tomorrow...

Sweet dreams.

Review of Miss Peregrine's Home for Peculiar Children by Ransom Riggs

The protagonist Jacob has a crazy grandfather who treasures a box of old photographs. These creepy photos of a floating girl, of a boy covered in bees, of a suit with nobody holding it up. Jacob's grandfather says that the people photographed were his friends when he lived in an orphanage during WW2. His stories are dismissed as which make's Jacob's family suspicious that the grandfather is infidel, a lunatic and a traumatized soldier. Jacob is present when his grandfather is killed by a monster. The question then remains whether the grandfather was crazy at all.

A wonderfully creepy collage from the book.

The protagonist was quite bland. He is diagnosed with a mental illness soon after his grandfather's death. Quite understandably, Jacob is a wimp at the beginning. All of his opinions have come from other people as he is terrified in believing his own opinions. Very quickly, he finds his own feet and jumps to the other extreme, believing everything he thinks is genius when he discovers Miss Peregrine's Home. To be honest I couldn't take Jacob seriously at times but I see the potential for a fantastic character arc in the following books. Additionally, I found that this book didn't provide many answers at all. It could be that the author has no idea or (what I'm hoping) that we are building up to something big. I'm optimistic that the unique premise of the series will lead in a new direction previously unknown to YA fiction.

A highlight of the book (which is why I  highly recommend a physical copy) was the inclusion of the grandfather's pictures. Readers are given a taste of the photos' creepiness from the book's cover art. Ransom Riggs is a visual writer; he has written for the screen before and his director's vision translates well in this book. If the text doesn't unsettle you the pictures certainly will.

Overall I give this book a 3.5. It had a unique premise and was fun to read. Although I wasn't really impressed by the protagonist's development, Jacob offers opportunity for exciting character development. I will probably continue this series in future but it isn't my top priority.

Let me know if you've read this series and what you thought. Ciao!

Harry Potter and the Killer Essay

Everyone, it's happening. My Harry Potter assignment is under way. Basically, I have to write an academic essay analyse the effectiveness of an influential author's work I can explore how the work fit into their career or how well the passage fit the genre or how well it argued a point or... almost anything really. The freedom is terrifying. I need restrictions. J.K Rowling's work spans a range of genres, a huge time span and if we are looking at Harry Potter, an entire 7 part series. HOW ON EARTH WILL I PICK A SINGLE CHAPTER?

I have narrowed my choices to these 3 scenes/chapters. Beside each I have written what part of the work I would focus on or how I would approach the topic. I'm really hoping you can help me pick something out. 

So many to choose from...

1. Diagon Alley in Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone- this is when Harry first goes into Gringott's, gets his want, meets Malfoy and buys school supplies. This chapter has fantastic description and exposition. It opens up a whole new world that had simply not existed before. Rowling's phenomenal creativity shines through and blows readers away.

2. Mirror of Erised in Harry Potter and the Philospher's Stone- the actual scene I would focus on is at the end of the chapter. It is quite a didactic/argumentative scene once you think about it. Dumbledore tells Harry that, "The  happiest man on earth would be able to use the Mirror of Erised like a normal mirror, that is, he would look into it and see himself exactly as he is." (p.156) Much of Rowling'series focuses on the internal battle between good and evil. The structure of the scene and Harry's deeper understanding of this concept later in the novel and series effectively highlights Rowling's message.

3. 19 Years Later in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows- you know the one. Rowling confessed in 2007 that she already knew how the story of Harry, his friends and his enemies would end. Having watched a few of her interviews regarding the completion of Harry Potter's final chapters, I think it would be fascinating to explore the quite obvious relief of Harry and Rowling in the final line, when they put down their wand and pen.

As I said, I am still open to suggestions and would love your opinion on which essay I should write. Ciao! (Btw, I have been reading a lot lately. Another book review is coming up.)

Raining outside and on my face

It's raining guys. And I wouldn't be sad about this if I didn't have to go outside today. Anywho. Today I'm doing a fun little post as a response to this booktag I found on Youtube. It's by one of my favourite booktubers, Christine Riccio. If you want to feel feelings then watch the video at the bottom. Going in reverse order, my top cry worthy books (which you may not have read before)

Looking for Alaska by John Green
I can't tell you much without spoiling but this is by John Green so you should read it. A guy leaves his home town in search of grander maybes and in the process, opens himself to love and loss. I know I'm an idiot for not seeing it coming. The beautiful, Gatsby-like reflections the characters have *after* were just a bit much for me. There was sniffling.

If I Stay by Gale Forman
For those unfamiliar with the story, If I Stay revolves around a girl who finds herself in a coma. She has been in a carcrash. Her parents and brother have died. Her boyfriend, friend and grandparents are left. She has the choice to wake up. The whole premise of the book was heartbreaking and as she weighs up how heartbreaking a life without her family would be, she also considers whether taking another person from her friends would break them. Misty eyes and croaky voice.

13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher
A girl commits suicide and leaves a set of tapes recording her 13 reasons for killing herself. She sends these tapes to the people involved in these reasons, for them, and only them, to know. This book was so sad because you could see all the different possibilities, so many futures, and you know how it ends. Well, not always... it's a pretty awesome and inspiring ending. Tummy twisting in horror knowing that suicide is not fiction. Very watery.

The Book Thief by Macus Zusak
Liesel is a regular book nerd growing up in Nazi Germany. The story is told by a grim reaper character who sees the best and worst of humanity. Although I was outright sobbing by the end, there was a poignant beauty in the prose that has lingered ever since. This is a truly heartbreaking and inspirational story. Click
here to see my movie review.

Perks of Being a Wallflower by Peter Chbosky
Charlie is the most innocent, sweet and sympathetic character I think I have ever read. This book is told in letter form throughout Charlie's high school journey as he tries to make friends, falls in love, grows into himself and then remembers an awful part of his past. One of the best book to movie adaptations I have ever seen as well. There was shaking and sobbing well after I finished.

On the Jellicoe Road by Melina Marchetta
As you can see from my extensive list, I am a sucker for a tragedy. This book's ending was perfection. Everything was full circle. Everything was tied together. I felt so complete that all I and the characters could do was cry a small river. This is one of my favourite books which many people haven't heard about.

All the book titles are linked to Goodreads if you want to check them out. Let me know if you have read any of them or which books have triggered a good sob. Ciao! 

Review of These Broken Stars

Hello again, back for another book review.

These Broken Stars promised me a wild space adventure with high stakes and, generally, the types of things you would expect from a YA dystopian (corrupt government, advanced technology, etc). I was disappointed. Unlike many of my favourite dystopians such as Hunger Games and Legend, this book lacked the excitement I was looking for. The whole plot can basically be summarised by one word: Titanic.

I will not insult your intelligence by retelling the Titanic/book's storyline. The main deviation is that the crash happens early and then turns into a little adventure on an unknown planet until help arrives. I try to read books generously and I will admit that it was an alright way to spend an evening, but it did not challenge my worldview or surprise me in any amazing way. It was a romance with a bit of sci-fi thrown in. The characters Lilac and Tarver were futuristic versions of Rose and Jack. If you prefer romance to dominate a storyline then this may be the perfect book for you, I just expected different.

Best parts: the title is perfect. The cover is pretty. One book down for my Goodreads challenge. In conclusion, I gave this a 3 star rating on Goodreads. So what book are you reading this Easter? Leave it in the comments. Ciao!